People always say things happen for a reason, but in all honesty, I’d give up all those reasons just to have you back. I sometimes hesitate talking about you or writing about you and sharing these words because no one wants to read sad letters to someone they’ve never met, you know? People want hope and they want happy endings. But the beautiful part of it all is that although these letters may be stringed with pain, everything you left me with leads me to hope. It leads me to happy endings. Because thats how you were. You taught me everything I know to be the person I am. You taught me how to whip up a poor mans dinner and talk about it like a delicacy. You taught me how to sit on the couch and play beautiful songs and just stare at the wall and paint pictures with your mind. You taught me to look at people, every single one of them, and love them like they were all yours. Like if you were the only one responsible to love them. You taught me the burden of integrity, and how to never leave it behind. Even if it leaves you missing out. Because doing the right thing never misses out. You taught me how to look at a map and crave it with all that is inside of me. You taught me how to be passionate for things. From people to places to art to making sure those cheap flowers from Home Depot actually become something in this life. And most of all, you taught me faith. You taught me to love God even when I dont understand God, because questions get answered and doubts get confirmed and everything else just goes away but love, that never ever fails.

miss you.